well, this story is only showing that I do really regret my self for slowing down my path on master degree. Back then, I was so desired to get a scholarship abroad for my master degree. But ya I'd say it is not my lucky, so I got rejected for more than 10 scholarships. Some people may things "its only killing the time" but I tried to see from another side then I start to be grateful. I am not that patient. I have doubt when having something But I know as long I work hard for it, I will get the result. However, not everyone know my struggles. Even the closest family. So, they are comparing me with other people (as always). Again, she said that I need to control and start to focused on one thing, but how about you? they started to compare between this one into that one and off course, I believe they also has different start. I thought, maybe it is caused by my former way, Alhamdullah I got everything easy before. Alhamdulillah I never find it that difficult to deal with
Continue..... Day passed so fast, we are still texted rarely, almost never. Once, I planned to visit him at his store by giving him a cup of coffee but it cancelled. WHY? HE ASKED ME OUT. I SAID OK, LETS MEET TONINGT. To be honest those days I laugh too much caused by several things in my office, so I am scared if I will got the bad result after meeting him. WE MET AT OUR SECOND MEETING PLACE. HE IS ALONE. At that time we are chatting something that is not really important until when the shop is going to close he asked me "WHAT DO YOU THING ABOUT MARRIAGE IS? DO PEOPLE NEED TO GET MARRIED BASED ON LOVE? IS IT OK TO BE TOGETHER WITH SOMEONE WHO ARE NOT DEAR TO ME? I thought those questions are RUDE!. ITS LIKE HE DOESNT EVEN TRY TO LOVE ME AT ALL. But I responded in a very smooth answer "I THINK PEOPLE NEED TO DEVELOP THEIR FEELING, BY THAT THE MARRIADGE LIFE WILL BE WORK WELL, A GOOD COMMUNICATION ALSO THE MOST IMPORTANT KEY IN MANAGING A MARRIADGE LIFE. We talked about many