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 Continue..... Day passed so fast, we are still texted rarely, almost never. Once, I planned to visit him at his store by giving him a cup of coffee but it cancelled. WHY? HE ASKED ME OUT. I SAID OK, LETS MEET TONINGT. To be honest those days I laugh too much caused by several things in my office, so I am scared if I will got the bad result after meeting him.  WE MET AT OUR SECOND MEETING PLACE. HE IS ALONE. At that time we are chatting something that is not really important until when the shop is going to close he asked me "WHAT DO YOU THING ABOUT MARRIAGE IS? DO PEOPLE NEED TO GET MARRIED BASED ON LOVE? IS IT OK TO BE TOGETHER WITH SOMEONE WHO ARE NOT DEAR TO ME? I thought those questions are RUDE!. ITS LIKE HE DOESNT EVEN TRY TO LOVE ME AT ALL. But I responded in a very smooth answer "I THINK PEOPLE NEED TO DEVELOP THEIR FEELING, BY THAT THE MARRIADGE LIFE WILL BE WORK WELL, A GOOD COMMUNICATION ALSO THE MOST IMPORTANT KEY IN MANAGING A MARRIADGE LIFE. We talked about many...

 CONTINUE..... After meeting him personally, I am MELTED AGAIN AND AGAIN, ITS LIKE HE IS THE ONE WHO MEANT, DESTINED, and FATED to be with ME. I questioned to ALLAH harder about his coming, is it really for me, or it is only one of the obstacle. But, ALLAH seems made me closer to him without my grasps. I started to be MORE INTERESTED IN HIM. I STOPPED MY ISTIKHOROH PRAY THEN, since I read an article said if we already got the answer, we need to stop our istokhoroh. We met casually, we texted each other even tough its only once in 2-3 days. At that time, I started to think " Its ok to get married anytime (before I said its nest year, I wasnt ready enough).  OH YA, I did istikhoroh couple of times but never get really convince and ready until I told him to visit my parent at my house. Around 2 weeks after, He came to my parents. YOU KNOW? my parent were really glad to know him until my mom stated to get married FASTER (LOL). My father also does not felt anything but good side of...

Though, I am always look like a cheerful entity (lol) but sometimes I felt guilty and doubt as well. However, this matter is not something that can be told to my parent (especially Mom) easily.  I got to introduced to him on my month (Oct). My Mom asked my permission to be encountered with a son of her friend, STRANGER. Then, the day after her consent, at around 9 pm I got texted by his sister which is (really) well-known in the city (she is my senior at elementary - high school). She texted me about my willingness to meet her that night. What? tonight?," something come to my mind. Casually, I won't meet her since I wore nothing but pajama. However, somewhere inside my body or heart told me to go and see her. Then, I met her and we talked about many things. The main point of our meeting is about the introduction toward her little brother. TBH, I do hate that way of introduction. The way she asked about my life, family, and plan just make me sick. Again, idk why, my body and so...

 Well, this story is about myself after months passed haha.  Before my birthday last year, I got introduced by my mom's friend to a stranger that I didnt know before. At first I hardly deny his present until I talk to Allah in my pray. I thought Allah gave me signal to be opener to him until last night he stated to stop our introductory (lol)  Have you ever consider the other feeling? I tried so hard to be more flexible into you, I tried to throw all the bad things about you and then you got me into this state? is it fair?  Ok, you are still in love with you ex but, how come you say it when you met my parent and vice versa?  should I close my heart again to another men?